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Sunday, January 06, 2008

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 02:33:45 GMT

i'm sick of this xanga, so i'm gonna make a new one
www.xanga.com/blamethe_caffeine

goodbye lights_allfaded.

Saturday, January 05, 2008

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 13:39:31 GMT

look at how sexy grace is when she is stunned (hehe.)

sharapova match! THATS ME! (the ballkid, and khee is there too)

abigail and laura (being silly as usual!)

my favourite aunty!

Anyway, today is a mark of achievement, thanks to Wee Khee Yen, I can now do 26 lines in a minute in a row! :D

Saturday, January 05, 2008

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 12:14:29 GMT

They chewed me up and then they spit me out
And I'm not supposed to let it bother me
But maybe I'm a little bit weak - I let my frailty take the wheel

tessa's christmas present to me rocks, its pink bedroom slippers! and its so soft, and an esprit towel

Friday, January 04, 2008

Fri, 04 Jan 2008 12:55:46 GMT

i have caught up with the class, catching up 3 days of work in 4 hours, now i'm exhausted but i wanna finish reading my book before i turn in.

in any case, met my form teacher properly today, she looks like mrs seto, i always thought they were the same person, i shall push aside my initial prejudices.

my chem teacher's a bit insane, he's making us do this personal notes file cover, and on the back of it, we have to write four things-
1 I love Chemistry
2 Mr Loh wants me to do well in Chemistry
3 I will ask when I do not understand
4 I will do well in Chemistry.

yes, there's a high chance we'll get mr seow for co-form/ss teacher cause mrs raj will be going on maternity leave once she gives birth (i hope she gives birth early), it'll be less boring when he comes back, arguments with michelle hwang (;

and michelle hwang jia en, come back to school, we all miss you.

you know that feeling that you feel like you're in the wrong place, and there's a wave of instability through your body. and all the confidence you ever had suddenly dissolves into your insecurity and you begin to wonder. am i doing what i should be doing?

Friday, January 04, 2008

Fri, 04 Jan 2008 08:45:18 GMT

Maybe a greater thing will happen.

Teachers love giving homework.
Today was the last day of Orientation Camp. I kinda regret not being more enthusiastic about the whole thing but I guess I was too tired. Will miss my Orientation group.

My form teacher wants us to write a Self-Introduction, I feel like i'm 5 instead of 15. Its supposed to be at least 3/4 of the page, but i can't even reach half. I've talked about my particulars, hobbies, home... next is favourite subjects. I can't think of anything else to do though.

Math is horrible, Mrs Gan keeps giving worksheets, and our Chem teacher is a bit insane. But not as funny as Mrs Chow!

Went out for Bea's birthday today (Happy birthday B, you're the most spastic funny person who always makes me smile and laugh.) i think i'll miss the group alot, like i went so sexy! to amanda today in class, and it felt weird you know? Like being outta place.

Slice me up a piece of that hog head cheese!

Thursday, January 03, 2008

Thu, 03 Jan 2008 13:57:52 GMT

There is a tide in the affairs of men,
Which taken at the flood, leads on to fortune. Omitted, all the voyage of their life is bound in shallows and in miseries. On such a full sea are we now afloat. And we must take the current when it serves, or lose our ventures

this is why, shakespeare is the best playwright the world has ever known. his imagery, and his words are so beautiful.

good writers give you this feeling, and i'm glad i stopped reading crappy romance novels.

People who don't know you but care, what do you do with them?

Thursday, January 03, 2008

Thu, 03 Jan 2008 13:40:48 GMT

i have little confidence in your intentions.
oh yes, for teachers update, quite pleased with some of the teachers i got, though i should've taken full hist and half lit, i think that i'm in the wrong combi, and that i'll drag down the class.

so here goes,
bio- ms angela ng (two angie's in class !)
chem- madeline forgot!
physics- mrs tong the coolest teacher who loves michelle hwang to bits.
full lit- mrs ng (yay!) michelle hwang is lit rep, cause we like having fun.
half hist- mrs chen kok peng :/

don't drag me down today.

"With us it ain't like that. We got a future. We got somebody to talk to that gives a damn about us. We don't have to sit in no bar room blowin' in our jack jus' cause we got no place else to go. If them other guys gets in jail they can rot for all anybody gives a damn. But not us."

'But not us! An' why? Because... because i got you to look after me, and you got me to look after you, and that's why.' He laughed delightedly.

Thursday, January 03, 2008

Thu, 03 Jan 2008 07:43:02 GMT

A longing carressed him, and the pain was so sharp that he wanted to cry to get it ouf of his breast. He lay down at the green grass near the round tub at the brush line. He covered his eyes and lay there for a long time, and he was full of a nameless sorrow.

The Red Pony- John Steinback.

i'm so going to fail sec 3 this year, i am missing the first two weeks of school (or most of it.) in any case, it sucks, cause i have to do the studying on my own (i hate that!) and photocopy notes from gillian. i'm so confused about matrices and i only missed a day of school.

orientation camp day 1:
frigging waste of time. i hated it, and i got so mad. the hell is it my fault that the group doesn't wanna listen to me?! i think people should go practise empathy sometimes. and don't ask me what's wrong with me, ask- what's wrong with THEM.

orientation camp day 2:
my group decided not to kill us today and were nice. so it was pretty much a fun day, even though sentosa was really exhausting and they stole all my water.

yay, my mom's going to buy east of eden and grapes of wrath for me.

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

Wed, 02 Jan 2008 09:27:56 GMT

memory, curse and bless. who would not wish to kill the pain and relive the joy that memory brings?

orientation camp, was so tiring, but i do love my group, i really do. even though it makes you a bit frustrated.

forgive.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 09:17:59 GMT

i can't have you for mine and i know it
but i just wanna watch you shine.

i have sunk into the depths of depression, seems to me my life's falling apart, but, life's like that, teachings of brooke davis, it kicks you and beats you up, but you're not just a survivor, you're a warrior.

would you rather be happy for a night, and sad for the rest, or just normal for all.